If Only...

i just hurt someone who loves me unconditionably,turn him away until his heart gave up.im the reason of the million painful tears dried in his pillow,im the reason that prayers of death linger in the four walls of his room…

finally his happy….with her

and now the time and life has a funny way of avenging the grief that enveloped him for so long.because now it is i who is now staring blankly in the wall,it is my tears that witnessing the pain of losing him..

“if onlys” are the words of a human in defeat,realizing that its all over for her..
if only i told him im sorry..
if only i held him tight to let him know that while im hurting him,i was hurting too
“if onlys” are desperate words that will never bring back the time that my heart longs for,”if only”...