30 things that man shud know!!! check it out once!!....

1. when a girl says she's sad, but she isn't crying, it means she's crying in her heart.
2. when she ignores u after u've done something wrong, it's best to giv her some time to cool down before touching her heart with an apology.
3. a gal cn't find anything to hate abt the guy she loves (which is why it is so hard for her to 'get over him' after the relationship' s over.)
4. if a gal loves a guy, he will always be on her mind evry minute of the day, evn though she flirts with othr guys.
5. when the guy she likes smiles n stares deep into her eyes, she will melt.
6. a gal likes to hear compliments, but usually not sure how to react to thm.
7. when a particular guy flirts with a girl vry often, a girl wud start thinking the guy likes her, so if u treat a girl jst as a friend, go easy on the smiles n stare ok?
8. if u don't like a girl. who likes u, break it to her gently.
9. if a girl starts avoiding u aftr u reject her, leave her alone for a while, if u still treat her as a friend, talk to her.
10. girls enjoy talking abt what thy feel, music, poetry, drawings n writing r ways of expressing themselves (which explains why most gals like writing journals).
11. nvr tell a girl that she is useless in anyway.
12. being too serious can turn a gal off.
13. when the guy she likes calls her for the 1st time, the girl may act uninterested during the call, but as soon as the phn is back on the hook, she will whoop with joy n immediately start telephoning her friends to spread the news.
14. a smile means a lot to a gal.
15. if u like a girl, try making friends with her 1st, let her get to know u.
16. if a girl says she cn't go out with u b'coz she has to study, leave.
17. but if she still calls u or expect a call frm u, stay.
18. don't try to guess a gal's feelings....ask her.....
19. hearing the words "i love you" is a great reassurance to a gal that she is beautiful.
20. after a gal falls in love with a guy, she'll wonder why she nvr noticed him before.
21. if u need tips on how to flirt with a girl , read romance stories =P
22. when class pictures come out, a girl wud 1st check who is standing nxt to her crush before actually looking at herself.
23. a girls ex-crush will always be in her memory, but the guy she loves now stays in her heart.
24. girls love having fun!
25. a simple 'Hiii' can brighten a gal's day.
26. a girls bst friends usually know bst what she is feeling n going through.
27. girls hate it whn a guy pays attention to thm jst to get close to their 'prettier' friend.
28. love means devotion, caring n happiness to a girl, in that order.
29. some girls care abt looks, some care abt brains, but girl all wnt a guy who will love n care for thm.
30.girls wnt nothing more thn to feel loved.

Cant seem to find the old me..

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I’m not supposed to want you;
I’m not supposed to care,
And yet I spend my time dreaming
Of all that we could share.

I’m not supposed to think about you
Or wonder where you’ve been,
But no matter how I fight it,
Thoughts of you sneak in.

I’m not supposed to ponder
Where you are each night,
But you creep into my vision
When the stars shine bright.

I’m not supposed to yearn so,
Always wishing you were here,
But I hunger for your kisses,
And I long to draw you near.

I’m not supposed to imagine
Where you are and what you do.
I know I shouldn’t cater
To a single thought of you.

I’m not supposed to need you.
I know these things. I do.
And yet I can’t help myself,
Because I fell in love with you.

Thanks

You've been a great part of my life. I learned something which made me stronger.Now,I am willing to face the world with no hesitations coz I know no matter how strong the wind will be,I'll stand firm and will never fall again.THANKS TO YOU.

Twisted

Trapped,I can't breathe.No matter how hard I try,How can I leave?
Wounded,I keep coming back for more.Letting you beat me black and blue,Beating me until I'm numb and sore.Inside,I am so confused, Not understanding,What's like to be refused. Sorry,I can't give youWhat you want.What can I do?Terrified, Of all of this. Thinking if I left, What would I miss? Emptied,I am just a broken doll.A chewed up toy,A trashy, need to be thrown away ball.Destroyed,I thought I was stronger.But it seems, for me,I can hold on no longer.How TWISTED,To be thinking this way.I am worth something... at least I think so...But it seems I have nothing left to say.

Painted sheet..

Memories painted on a sheet
Were vanished from my life forever
My heart and the past meet
Reminds me of those moments
That were pleasant and sweet

Letting go the past, made me feel clever
Trying to avoid my feelings and fears
Was a mistake I never should done… Never
Now my eyes cry hopeless tears
For the painted sheet
That now I have lost forever...

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too many tears..

I have a weak heart - I get really lonely too
Sometimes, I cry by myself too
Because I'm a fool, I only know one thing
Even though I know how to give love, I don't know how to throw it away

I have many thorns so I have a lot of scars
Can you still hug me, who is like this?
I want to lean against you in your embrace
I want to believe in my love that I kept throwing away, once again

* Because I have many tears, because I fear love
I can't take a step toward you although you are in front of me
If you really love me, run to me and hug me
I can't see because I have many tears

I have many secrets, so there are a lot of lies too
Even if I'm this way, do you understand?
I want to erase, I want to turn it back
I want to forget the past love that deceived and deceived me, once again

The wind is blowing and I softly close my eyes
I feel your fragrance
Where are you? Are you looking at me?
I want it - I want you

Because tears overflow, because my fear for love overflows
I don't recognize you although you're right in front of me
If you really love me, run to me and hug me
I can't see because I have many tears

With your hands, wipe away my tears

1. My favourite number is 18
2. A bit of a tomboy on the inside at times
3. One of these days I’m gonna write a book…and be published.
4. Today is not one of those days.
5. I use and abuse … and
6. I love MAKE UP's
7. In an alternate life, in a parallel universe…I live and work and play and love
8. I’m not a phone person. Really, I talk WAY too much and can never get off the phone, email me.
9. I don’t know what I would do without my blog as an outlet. Seriously.
10. I love fried chicken
11. I hate it when friends, family ignore me..in any other way!
12. I tend to have many, many crushes. I can’t help it. I love a great brain…
13. I’m a very good girl.
14. But not *all* the time.
15.I always try to put positiveness in everyone.
16. I’ve lost count of how many times I’ve seen Him..
17. But I can vividly remember being as giddy as a schoolgirl meeting him the first time…
18. I delete. Frequently. Don’t want to keep things out there too long. I can’t count how many secret blogs I’ve started and deleted…
19. I love eggs. From my head down to my legs. (allergic to it tho)
20. Not a fan of hot weather and humidity.
21. I pick and choose my battles wisely.
22. Boy do I enjoy time on my own too though…I might get my energy from others but I soak in the quiet moments as well.
23. Give me a PC and a cup of milk (or two) and I am utterly content for…hours.
24. The word cancer terrifies me and rightfully so…
25. Facebook might be the greatest site ever!

I love them.. for keeps

nom nom!~~~~

Love stories happen everyday..

I will never ever lose hope. I refuse to. No matter the odds, no matter what happens, it’s still my choice, my decision, my power, to hold onto the faith in what I believe to be true. That’s the one thing that can never be taken from me unless I allow it because I believe that sometimes the impossible is possible.
I know life can be so hard. It can beat you down, it can spit in your face, it can do just about anything, and yet you can’t do a thing to prevent it. But I guarantee that one day you will smile again. You will wake up in the morning, and not have to fight the urge to cry anymore. Yes, it can take a while.. weeks, months, maybe even years. But you will get there, I promise you that...

Posing for the cam..while doing my works

felt really good?.. doubt it

Gen.. I think im falling..

Make up..

Love my look here.. September 2011

Missing him..missing the friendship that we had..

Heartbreak round 10

To be more precise, different stages + different feelings + high compatibility + high chemistry + low trust = even more heartbreak.

I've been through alot this past few years. And the hurtful thing is, I don't feel like I'm in any better situation than I was 5 years ago, and I'm not feeling like I'm progressing or even getting close to what I want. The worst part of that is when I try to stay as optimistic as possible, and tell myself that I'm getting closer to my goal, and then have it delivered to me point blank that actually no, I'm further away than ever. Cue, heartbreak round 10.

Something new..

Confused on what to do.. another 1 coming? stop acting sweet to me..i might fall for you..

Potipot..

We have different point of views..But still i love them..

I love them..

Having Fun..

Been going out and Drinking alot lately.. im having fun!!!

My first model..

KC..

The day he said.. "salamat sa lahat"

Tried to tell myself that everything will be alright.. and that i can go on with my life..meet a new guy and love him more than i love you..Our friends tell me that youre not worth the love that im giving you..and that you always took me for granted..but what can i do? i just cant stop thinking of you..I have the feeling that even that friendship that we had is now ending..especially when you said "salamat sa lahat".. you just dont know how many times pero i cried too much...too much..

till next time..

Why is it so hard?..well i should know the answer.. love is indeed complicated..complicated enough to turn my normal world go upside down..meeting an awesome guy like you made me realized alot of things in life..made me realized that i should love myself first..more than anyone else..you made me feel so happy and special..all these i'll treasure forever..no regrets..cuz i get to spend that 1 inch of my life wit you..im hoping to meet you in my next life,..wishing that everything will just be so simple and enough for me to say that i love you..i promise i'll say it..Bye.. for now..

New Year Note

“For last year's words belong to last year's language and next year's words await another voice.”

T.S. eliott







2010--another year has come and gone and now its like 2011. one more year till we all can live happily then boom apocalypse! lmao jk. all in all it was a good year for me. perhaps one of the most memorable year of my life. i did alot of things. i fell in and out of love, fell back in and after all that was said and done..im back IN again LMAO. it was unexpected but thank god by the end of the year i found some happiness yet again. a rollercoaster of ups and downs and relentless drama unfolded in 2010 but as 2011 has come anew; loet all the bad things come to past; start fresh and happy. i met unforgettable people last year; i lost some and gained some more. and tot hose people i met...thank you for being a part of my life. yall are the awesomest!